Don’t worry, be happy

Since I had a rough week last week having a hard time dealing with homesickness, I decided to post this photo up of me at a time I was really happy and calm, and also somewhere that is my favourite place to be – the beach! Starting to feel much better now thanks to the weather and my friends, especially having an awesome girlie day out today with Lisa.

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If anyone else is having a hard time, I have this photo up for you too to remind you all to treasure the good moments in your life and be as happy as you can be despite the bad times.

Take care, be strong, happy smiling and god bless!

Love Kathy
xxx

Oceans apart

One of the hardest parts of being so far away from home is not being able to spend time with my friends, my best friends in particular. I communicate with my best friend Louise everyday through email and that gives me a lot of comfort because it feels like I’m with her and that I never left. Our emails keep me going when I miss her terribly.

Luckily she has plans to visit in the summer which is so exciting. It will be so surreal to see her in the flesh! I cannot wait for our plans overseas.

Louise is the one person who knows me inside out and she never judges me for anything. I love our solid friendship and being away makes me realise how close we really are and I treasure her even more now and don’t take her for granted. Thank goodness there are such things as email and skype otherwise I wouldn’t know what to do!

I wish she was with me everyday!

I love you bestie ❤

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Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

I never thought I would be able to talk about a break up I went through without getting emotional but here I am, about to do so.

I was with a guy for three years and we broke up about a year and a half ago. I was very back and forth with him afterwards – talking, then not talking and so forth. I was taking so many steps backwards in to moving on but for anyone who has been in a long term relationship and have broken up, you would understand how hard it is to avoid that one person who you’ve shared so much with and who’s been in your life for a long time.

Those closest to me know how much I was affected by the break up and how much I let it ruin my life! And none of it was worth it.

Referring to my ‘I am number one’ blog, I mentioned how I would always try and please my ex boyfriend so he was happy and as a result, neglecting my needs, my health and my happiness. I did that for months and months, even though I knew it was for nothing and knew it was a waste of my time and effort and that it was a cost to my happiness.

It’s so strange how one person can affect your life so much and make you do extreme things and go to desperate measures. You become a different person, what I’d like to call, the worst version of yourself. I was never happy with my ex boyfriend in my life and even when I thought I was, it didn’t last very long. I knew that he was making me unhappy but I never kept away from him, as much as I knew I should have.

After a year and a half of almost hell, I can safely say that I have accepted that my relationship with my ex boyfriend is over and it’s time for me to move on, which I have already been doing this past month while being away.

All the times I was miserable and let my ex boyfriend consume my life, I never thought I could get through it and I never thought that I could get over him.
But this past month away has done wonders for my emotional and physical health. I laugh everyday, I’m always smiling, I’m a better friend, sister and daughter and I appreciate life so much more. I also run everyday, eat less and eat better and I’m feeling great!

Don’t get me wrong, break ups are hard and I went through a lot but I am so happy that I’m in the healing process and taking care of myself, doing things to make me happy and not worrying about what anyone else wants because I know that I’m important and deserve to feel and be happy.

I don’t feel guilty, regretful or sad about the break up or how things have turned out from then on because I know everything happens for a reason and not every relationship is meant to be. There is a lot worse out there and I’m
lucky I didn’t go through a relationship that lasted longer through to an engagement or marriage!

Despite the pain it did put me through, pain is more than likely to occur and exist which we have to accept but to suffer is a CHOICE. And I choose not to suffer over an experience that I am already starting to heal from and one in which I am becoming a much better and stronger person.

I can’t even remember the last time I felt this happy but I am very glad that I have reached this point. We always get there in the end. All it takes is time,
patience, acceptance and realisation that life does get better and that there is a bigger world beyond that one guy we thought we would be with for a life time. As one door closes, another one opens and I am so excited to experience this beautiful world and what challenges it brings me! Onward and upward!

Loved and dearest

What inspired me to write this blog is my family. They are such important people in my life and they play a major part in making me the person I am today. They are my most loved and dearest people in the whole world.

Last night I was on Skype with my niece and auntie and it was so good to hear their voices after a month. We talked for hours, laughed, exchanged life stories but what was the most touching to me was that my family is so supportive of me and my travel plans and they have really noticed the changes it has done to my life. They can see I’m really happy, positive and just loving life! And it makes me feel so good about myself and very confident. I have such a high self esteem and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

The first thing my auntie noticed was my weight, she could tell I had lost a lot in a good way according to her so I guess all this running and non excessive eating regime is really paying off! It means so much to me that my family can see the changes and it just makes me more motivated to keep it all up!

When family make you feel so great, you know that’s all you need. I know I’m very much loved by them which is why I maintain being positive and happy so they can be surrounded by that.

I love my family and I wouldn’t trade them for anyone.

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