A new year begins. Happy 2012!

I am back after a week without blogging. Talk about what a busy weekend I had! Visiting family who live 5 hours away and briefly being in London for an afternoon tea. All of that really does make up for the fact I haven’t been able to attend to my love of writing.

May I just say, HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone! May you all have a successful 2012. I still can’t believe it is the new year. 2011 went by so fast for me and before you know it, it will be the end of 2012 and my year trip in the UK will be nearing to an end. I don’t want to think about it! So I’m going to make the most of this year being in this beautiful country.

2011 was a pretty rough year for me and it’s safe to say it’s all over and in my past now, minus the good moments I’ve also had in that year of course. I’d like to think this year will be different and I’m sure it will be in many ways. I have so much ahead of me in the UK and when I return home. As I always have, I will take each day as it comes and live every day with happiness and accept that there are bad times that I know I will be able to push through whenever I come across them.

I’m not sure if many of you set a new year’s resolution but I never have mainly because I’ve never seen the need to considering I set life goals anyway. I also feel there is a lot of pressure in aiming for a new year’s resolution because you do need to achieve it in that year whereas life goals are ongoing. My friend Amiee recently posted a blog about not having a new year’s resolution but a life one; of living in happiness and love deeply, which I think is really beautiful and to me, I see that as she will live by that every year and not have to set a new resolution every time. I like her way of thinking and I believe I follow that same perspective too. As long as I can feel and be happy as much as I can each and everyday, then I don’t need to set any new year resolution. I just need to take things with a grain of salt and let the universe take care of the rest.

I must admit, I was in a very strange mood leading up to the new year. Visiting family and having to work on New Year’s Eve made me miss my family and home a lot and it did get me down, especially today. This is the first new year I’m without them and it is hard knowing I’m not with the people I care about and who care about me. Don’t get me wrong, I still had a great New Year’s Eve and I don’t mind that I was working because I was surrounded by music and a lot of positive and fun energy. It felt like I was out clubbing which is what I would have been doing if I was back home or if I had organised it here if I wasn’t working. It was hard not being around my friends too because I did feel a little out of place at times when I was at work, and that’s probably because I haven’t made enough connections with some of my work friends to get to know them better.

Feeling a little stressed out and sad reminds of the person I was in 2011 and it’s somewhere I don’t ever want to go back to, but I accept that it is okay to feel a little sad, stressed and home sick and this is just what being away from family, travelling for a long time is all about. I know this phase once again will soon be over. I’m going to make 2012 one of the best year’s of my life! One to never forget!

I wish you all the happiness and success in the world for 2012. Follow your dreams and live life to the full.
Make this year count. Make it the best
one yet.

All my love,

Kathy
xxx

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Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

I never thought I would be able to talk about a break up I went through without getting emotional but here I am, about to do so.

I was with a guy for three years and we broke up about a year and a half ago. I was very back and forth with him afterwards – talking, then not talking and so forth. I was taking so many steps backwards in to moving on but for anyone who has been in a long term relationship and have broken up, you would understand how hard it is to avoid that one person who you’ve shared so much with and who’s been in your life for a long time.

Those closest to me know how much I was affected by the break up and how much I let it ruin my life! And none of it was worth it.

Referring to my ‘I am number one’ blog, I mentioned how I would always try and please my ex boyfriend so he was happy and as a result, neglecting my needs, my health and my happiness. I did that for months and months, even though I knew it was for nothing and knew it was a waste of my time and effort and that it was a cost to my happiness.

It’s so strange how one person can affect your life so much and make you do extreme things and go to desperate measures. You become a different person, what I’d like to call, the worst version of yourself. I was never happy with my ex boyfriend in my life and even when I thought I was, it didn’t last very long. I knew that he was making me unhappy but I never kept away from him, as much as I knew I should have.

After a year and a half of almost hell, I can safely say that I have accepted that my relationship with my ex boyfriend is over and it’s time for me to move on, which I have already been doing this past month while being away.

All the times I was miserable and let my ex boyfriend consume my life, I never thought I could get through it and I never thought that I could get over him.
But this past month away has done wonders for my emotional and physical health. I laugh everyday, I’m always smiling, I’m a better friend, sister and daughter and I appreciate life so much more. I also run everyday, eat less and eat better and I’m feeling great!

Don’t get me wrong, break ups are hard and I went through a lot but I am so happy that I’m in the healing process and taking care of myself, doing things to make me happy and not worrying about what anyone else wants because I know that I’m important and deserve to feel and be happy.

I don’t feel guilty, regretful or sad about the break up or how things have turned out from then on because I know everything happens for a reason and not every relationship is meant to be. There is a lot worse out there and I’m
lucky I didn’t go through a relationship that lasted longer through to an engagement or marriage!

Despite the pain it did put me through, pain is more than likely to occur and exist which we have to accept but to suffer is a CHOICE. And I choose not to suffer over an experience that I am already starting to heal from and one in which I am becoming a much better and stronger person.

I can’t even remember the last time I felt this happy but I am very glad that I have reached this point. We always get there in the end. All it takes is time,
patience, acceptance and realisation that life does get better and that there is a bigger world beyond that one guy we thought we would be with for a life time. As one door closes, another one opens and I am so excited to experience this beautiful world and what challenges it brings me! Onward and upward!

A whole new world

Okay so it’s been just over a week since I last blogged… it got to the point where I was having blogging withdrawals because it feels so normal of my routine now but not to worry! I will be catching up on all my missed days, even if I cover them briefly. So last time I left off from last Tuesday, the 4th of October so this blog will be following from Wednesday October 5. That day was to be very exciting because my auntie planned for me and her to go to LA and stay with family friends up there. Although I was excited, I was stressing a little because it was planned so last minute and I had nothing ready! I was in bed until about midday that day because I was pretty tired and to honest, a little tipsy from the night out with my neighbour the night before so I was feeling very apathetic. But I knew we were to leave later that afternoon so that motivated me to jump in the shower and get ready to go! How could I feel lazy for a trip to LA right? LOL. Crazy girl! So the excitement really started to kick in once I had got dressed and got my things ready. I must admit, due to being a woman, it was a struggle to pack a week’s worth of clothing and basic necessities into an overnight bag because I tend to over pack but I managed to do it!

My uncle dropped my auntie and I off to the bus/rail station at around 4:30pm because my auntie and I were catching a bus from downtown San Francisco to the train station for a changeover on to the Amtrak service for a 6 hour trip, only to change over again to another bus for the remaining 2 hours to LA. My auntie and I were very lucky to get the train because 5:15pm was the last service and thanks to the really nice gentleman working at the ticket box, he manged to fit us in. I don’t want to blab on too much about everything that happened in detail because I’m sure you will lose interest quickly and I would rather get to the point.

The train was really great, it was two levels and had tables, food etc like you’re on a plane. It was awesome! Within that 6 hours of the train ride, I came across a man who approached me, asking me where I was headed. I told him LA and he was headed to San Diego and from there going to Mexico and from that point on we talked the whole trip! I found this man really fascinating. He’s a writer for books and screenplays and he does it for a living! But not one of his pieces have ever been published or used in productions. But he’s okay with it because he makes a living out of it! He mentioned he contributed to the research of the film: ‘A beautiful mind’ with Russell Crowe which is one of my favourite films. I could tell that this man was very intelligent and had a lot to say for himself and he really captured me because I love to write and read myself, but preferably the latter. I liked him because he’s a traveller too and he has been travelling since he was 15. I find that so amazing that he started at such a young age and still continues to do it into his near 60’s. We talked about life, dreams and goals. He gave me some good advice on some things as we exchanged some of our live stories, he also recommended for me to read a book about reincarnation because he gave me a really interesting prospect about it. He was hypnotised by an author of this book called ‘Life after life’ and he told me that when he was under he was speaking a totally different language and going back to a different time where he could speak this language. I found it fascinating because how could you speak another language so fluently if you don’t even know it in this lifetime? That made me wonder and became interested in reading this book. I felt like this man was my mentor in a way and I had only met him on this trip! He gave me great life advice, and inspired me to sing because it’s what I love to do. He also said I had a unique look about me which I felt great about and appreciated his compliment. Anyway, he invited me auntie and I to come visit him in Mexico because he lives in a beach house up there with his partner and it only cost him $50, 000! I didn’t know Mexico was that cheap! And omg oops, having verbal diarrhea right now when I said I wouldn’t go on lol. Don’t fret, after this it will be much more brief 🙂

So I was in LA until Tuesday and had an amazing time! I went to Vegas while I was there for two days, fit some shopping in and for those of you girls who love cheap stores (I couldn’t imagine who wouldn’t) go to Forever 21 if you ever come to America. They have the best clothes there and they are really cheap! The store I went to was HUGE! I could have been in there for hours! I didn’t know where to start! Amongst doing all that, I went to Disneyland and Universal Studios which were both really great experiences. I love travelling the world, meeting new people and experiencing life. There is so much out there in this beautiful world and I learn something new everyday here. Since day 1, I am still enjoying my trip more than ever and do not want to go back home! I’m so happy here!

And this is me at Univeral Studios with Alex from Madagascar 🙂

Hello from the sunny USA!

Sight of the Golden Gate Bridge

So it just so happens that I am in the land of America visiting family, getting away from routine and monotonous activities back home and getting away to escape certain dramas and block out negative issues (no I’m not a nutcase! Just human). I guess you could call it a bit of a break from reality.

September 20 was the day of my flight to San Francisco International Airport. Feeling nervous and scared as ever (but excited at the same time of course) since it was the first time I was going on a plane by myself and being away from my family for so long. Luckily there weren’t many tears, since I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop and compose myself if I did cry too much. The flight that what was supposed to be at 10:15am had changed to 11:30 by the time the plane had left the ground. Gate 4 was where I was waiting to board and if it wasn’t for a few group of friends who asked why Air New Zealand Flight 124 had not appeared on Gate 4’s screen, I may not have even left Melbourne Airport! I knew it was a bit odd that the boarding time on my pass stated 9:45am and yet no one was getting called to board the plane by the time it was 10:15am. In the process of eavesdropping into this group of friend’s enquiry, I had realised that gate 4 was now changed from gate 8 and from that to gate 10! Phew! I was actually going to get to San Francisco!

The flight out to New Zealand was quite speedy and as soon as I landed there, it was a quick transfer onto Flight NZ 8 into San Francisco. Since the plane was quite delayed from Melbourne, it wasn’t really much of a stop over at Auckland, LOL. Anyway,  that flight felt like the longest 11 or 12 hours of my life! And it’s probably due to the fact I feel uncomfortable and so confined in planes and I can’t really sleep on them at all. And looking at the clock every hour didn’t help either! Not only that, but I was also in a window seat and only got up to go to the toilet about 2 times because I just couldn’t be bothered getting passed two people to move around. Aisle seats are definitely my preference!

Estimated arrival time was about 10:15am into San Fran but due to all the delays and customs process, I didn’t get out of there until about 12pm! My luggage had also unknowingly ended up at LAX airport and was due to be delivered at my auntie’s place later that evening. It didn’t phase me because I knew my luggage would find it’s way back to me and I got $100 compensation out of it! After all the hustle and bustle, I was welcomed by my beautiful family who I was so excited to see and vice versa. Although feeling quite unclean, a little sick from the flight and feeling homesick, I knew this was going to be an amazing trip as the days went on.

It has now been almost two weeks since I’ve been here and I am absolutely loving it! Life is great! I don’t want to leave, and my family here are so amazing and do so much for me. The last time I came here I was only ten years old so I didn’t really remember all that much and it has now been 11 years, I am now 21 and embracing so much of this beautiful city. The one thing I love about San Francisco the most is that it’s very hilly and everywhere I go, I’m surrounded by amazing mountainous views. One mountain in particular known as San Bruno Mountain is only 15 minutes away from my auntie’s house! Downtown San Francisco is also pretty cool and really busy and so alive day and night which is what I love! I haven’t explored all of downtown as yet but it’s definitely a must before I leave here. I’ve seen Golden Gate Bridge, Pier 39 (Fisherman’s Wharf) and the San Francisco Bay Aquarium. I’ve also managed to fit in some shopping too. I mainly brought winter clothes here since it is Autumn but the days are hot! And it has not rained once! So I had to invest into some tank tops, shorts and dresses. Mind you, everything is so much cheaper here! From clothing, to food, to transport!

Well, only two weeks and so many more to go and so many more adventures to experience. Scheduled on the list is LA, Las Vegas, Sacramento, Reno, Lake Taho and possibly Canada! This is thanks to my auntie’s friends who offered to take us around. I am so excited and cannot wait to do some more exploring! Life is so great right now and nothing can get in the way of that. Traveling is the best form of therapy I could ever think of and if any of you out there feel lost in life and don’t have a sense of direction, you’re wanting to take a break from work or studies or merely just want to spice up your life a little, save up your money, book that ticket to wherever it is you want to go whether it be a place that’s hot or cold, has clear waters, beaches, snow, whatever it is you like, go and do it! You deserve a good trip! And it’s an experience that no one can take away from you and one that you will gain so much out of.  Go on, you know you want to.

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