A power sentence for each year of my life

1990  – I was born to the most amazing parents in the world, I would not be here today if it wasn’t for them!

1991 – My sister Sarah was born and despite all the fights we had as children, she has become my very best friend in the entire world.

1992 – I went on my first trip to the Philippines. I don’t remember it obviously but it’s amazing enough that I had gone overseas at such a young, tender age.

1993 -I really do not remember any big events that happened this year so I won’t be able to recall any.

1994 – I received my very first bike with training wheels from my brother. I loved riding around on that thing!

1995 – I was a flower girl with my sister for my auntie’s wedding in the Philippines. What an amazing experience that was and I felt honoured playing such an important part on her special day.

1996  – My first year of primary school. This was a very scary milestone in my life since I was so used to being around my mum all the time. I cried so much when she took me to school. I did not want to let her go! I also remember crying in class and my teacher was so good about it.

1997 -I celebrated my 7th birthday at McDonald’s which is where they used to run parties for children with games, cake and the like. It was such a huge and popular thing to do at my age back then. All children got psyched about it.

1998 – I moved from Thomas Chirnside Primary School to St. Andrew’s Catholic School. That’s where I met one of my first best friends who, sadly I have lost touch with and don’t see anymore.

1999 – I memorised a speech for the very first time that I presented in front of my class. That’s all thanks to my dad who taught me a lot.  Memorising that speech increased my public speaking skills and confidence that became extremely useful in my later school years.

2000 – I had my first family trip to the UK and America.  I missed a good three months of school because of it! But it was a great trip from what I remember.

2001 – The year of 9/11 and although this did not affect me personally, I do remember going to school that morning and seeing it all over the news. Such an extreme event to be exposed to at the age of 11.

2002 -I became one of the sports captains for my team ‘Padua’. This was a very proud moment for me as it taught me how to be a good leader.

2003 – I began secondary school at Mackillop Catholic Regional College and I missed my first two weeks because of being in the Philippines and I was nervous as it was. Everyone else in my class had settled in for that time! But Year 7 was not as hard as I made it out to be at all. It was almost like my last year of primary school!

2004 – Me and my family moved from our old address we had lived in for 9 years to a new double storey house not too far away. I still miss my old house though! It had the biggest garden.

2005 – I started my very first part time job in retail at a department store. I was there for 5 years.

2006 – I went to Japan for two weeks for a school trip. It is such an amazing country and I would love to go again. My favourite sights were Tokyo and the Hiroshima Bomb Dome site. I met the most amazing people there and the host family I stayed with treated me as their own.

2007 – My father passed away – I lost my best friend that year. He was my mentor and still is my hero and admiration. That was a very difficult time for me and to this day I still find it hard that he’s not around… We were very close and it was painful to lose someone so close to me at the age of 16. I do appreciate I was old enough to get to know him though.

2008 – I turned 18 and had the best party ever to celebrate it. Surprisingly enough, I did not have one drink that night. I was never into drinking until I turned 19. This is all feels like so long ago now.

2009 – I entered my first year of University and studied the Bachelor of Arts. I am very grateful for uni as I have made many lifelong friends from there.

2010 – I broke up with my first serious boyfriend of three years. I met him when I was 16 and experienced what it was like to be in love. I was very naive then. I thought I would be with him for life so this was a pretty hard year for me, one in which I really lost myself and had no direction in life.

2011 – I decided to make a change and let go of my past by going to the US in September and the UK in November, where I am still living now and plan to for a year. It was the best decision I ever made. I have learned so much and grown so much as a person. This is has been one of the most amazing experiences of my life!

2012 – It is still quite early into the year but I currently enjoy being in the UK and working at a local club where I have met some really awesome people. This year is the year to be all things different, and travel anywhere I possibly can! I love my life 🙂

I hope you enjoyed reading through the journey of my life so far. I can’t believe how fast time has flown over the years!

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A bump in the road

I missed out on my daily blog for yesterday which I am a little disappointed about however, I am not going to make a habit of it.

Yesterday and part of today were tough. I woke up late as usual on a Sunday since I work late every Saturday night and even though I try all efforts in waking up by at least eleven or twelve, I always manage to sleep in until 2:30pm to make sure I have completely recovered from such a busy shift.

I have been feeling homesick over the past week but yesterday it really seemed to hit hard. There are certain triggers that start it off such as not being able to drive knowing I can drive, not catching up with work friends enough, seeing my cousins together as sisters knowing I can’t be with my own (as beautiful as it is to see my cousin’s together) to name a few.

I had isolated myself in my room until lunchtime today and I had not eaten for 30 hours. I felt so hungry at first, but then I felt OK. My body was used to it. I guess I just wanted to be on my own and only speak with my loved ones back home. It was nothing against my family here but I wasn’t ready to face up to them yet about anything going on. They were all extremely worried and tried to get me to come out for food but to no avail.

I did get to speak to my best friend Louise over skype and we both got pretty emotional, but it was good to hear her voice. It was comforting. She reminded me that even though we are so far apart and really wish we were with each other, she knows that I had to take this trip and experience it for what it is.

When I finally let my family in this morning, I had a good chat with my auntie and we sorted everything out. I felt so bad for worrying them but I just wanted to get passed what I was feeling. My auntie felt like she had done something wrong but I reassured her that it wasn’t anything to do with her at all.

I also got to speak to my beautiful sister on skype and that also helped my day get off to a bright start 🙂

It was also good to get some food into me and have a nice hot shower.

My cousins were so pleased I was feeling more myself. Now I write this with no intention of attention seeking or pity because I never like to portray that idea despite my down days. I have always believed in being honest through this blog and this is my only goal here. I express only the truth. And I tell it like it is.

I am feeling much better apart from the fact I may have given myself a sore throat from having no food or drink yesterday but that’s my own fault.

Homesickness is completely normal and I know I was bound to feel this way at some point. Once I get a day job and do more social things, I will start to feel homesick less and less.

I have been invited out clubbing on Friday, I have my work Christmas Party next Friday and I will be going to London for a weekend next month and will be staying with my cousin so a lot will be happening!

England I won’t give up on you!

A new year begins. Happy 2012!

I am back after a week without blogging. Talk about what a busy weekend I had! Visiting family who live 5 hours away and briefly being in London for an afternoon tea. All of that really does make up for the fact I haven’t been able to attend to my love of writing.

May I just say, HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone! May you all have a successful 2012. I still can’t believe it is the new year. 2011 went by so fast for me and before you know it, it will be the end of 2012 and my year trip in the UK will be nearing to an end. I don’t want to think about it! So I’m going to make the most of this year being in this beautiful country.

2011 was a pretty rough year for me and it’s safe to say it’s all over and in my past now, minus the good moments I’ve also had in that year of course. I’d like to think this year will be different and I’m sure it will be in many ways. I have so much ahead of me in the UK and when I return home. As I always have, I will take each day as it comes and live every day with happiness and accept that there are bad times that I know I will be able to push through whenever I come across them.

I’m not sure if many of you set a new year’s resolution but I never have mainly because I’ve never seen the need to considering I set life goals anyway. I also feel there is a lot of pressure in aiming for a new year’s resolution because you do need to achieve it in that year whereas life goals are ongoing. My friend Amiee recently posted a blog about not having a new year’s resolution but a life one; of living in happiness and love deeply, which I think is really beautiful and to me, I see that as she will live by that every year and not have to set a new resolution every time. I like her way of thinking and I believe I follow that same perspective too. As long as I can feel and be happy as much as I can each and everyday, then I don’t need to set any new year resolution. I just need to take things with a grain of salt and let the universe take care of the rest.

I must admit, I was in a very strange mood leading up to the new year. Visiting family and having to work on New Year’s Eve made me miss my family and home a lot and it did get me down, especially today. This is the first new year I’m without them and it is hard knowing I’m not with the people I care about and who care about me. Don’t get me wrong, I still had a great New Year’s Eve and I don’t mind that I was working because I was surrounded by music and a lot of positive and fun energy. It felt like I was out clubbing which is what I would have been doing if I was back home or if I had organised it here if I wasn’t working. It was hard not being around my friends too because I did feel a little out of place at times when I was at work, and that’s probably because I haven’t made enough connections with some of my work friends to get to know them better.

Feeling a little stressed out and sad reminds of the person I was in 2011 and it’s somewhere I don’t ever want to go back to, but I accept that it is okay to feel a little sad, stressed and home sick and this is just what being away from family, travelling for a long time is all about. I know this phase once again will soon be over. I’m going to make 2012 one of the best year’s of my life! One to never forget!

I wish you all the happiness and success in the world for 2012. Follow your dreams and live life to the full.
Make this year count. Make it the best
one yet.

All my love,

Kathy
xxx

Merry Christmas!

To all my loved ones in Australia, the UK, America, Philippines and to everyone else around the world I wish you all a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!

May you all have a beautiful day shared with your loved ones, eat up a storm, rip open those presents and for anyone who is travelling during this time, please be safe!

Lots of love,
Kathy
xxx

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‘Tis the season…

It’s that time of year again, all things hectic and crazy. I can’t believe how quick this year has gone and that Christmas is only 3 days away. As like every December, (accept this time I’m in another country) everywhere is busy and everyone is rushing around doing their last minute Christmas shopping. Today I did mine, and since I’m away from home, I’m lucky I didn’t have the stress of buying for too many people. Each year it seems so much harder to find gifts for my friends and family because they either have everything they need or don’t want anything at all.

This year, although it was somewhat stressful, I knew what I wanted to get for my family here based on discovery questions and observing what they like. Even though that was the case, I was in one shop for almost an hour trying to figure out what to get and choose between one thing another which did stress me out -as always I was just so indecisive! But once I did some hunting, I ended up finding the perfect gifts for my family members. PHEW! It is such a relief and a massive load off your shoulders when you have bought all your Christmas presents. It’s even better when you get it done in one day and you’re happy with the costs! I always get excited with gift giving because I love the look on people’s faces when they see what you’ve given them, knowing that they love what you got them.

I wouldn’t say I’m a big fan of Christmas and I don’t get excited about it anymore. This has been the case since my dad passed away and it’s also probably because I’m not a kid anymore so I’ve grown out of it and I don’t care much for presents because I don’t expect anything. I don’t need all that much, and these days I buy what I need myself. In saying that though, I do really appreciate any gifts I do get.

This Christmas in particular will be different and hard because one; I’ll be having a Christmas winter, two; it will be another Christmas without my dad and three; it will be my first Christmas away from my mum and dearest sister and I really do miss them and I do wish we were together but I’m thankful I have a family here to celebrate with. I will try my hardest to be happy because of that.

As this is meant to be a happy time and one that is about being with family, unfortunately I have heard that young lives have been lost due to car accidents back home in Australia and here, in Devon. For those families who have been affected by these tragic incidents, may God give you strength during this difficult time and may those who have died, rest in peace. I wish everyone safe travels if anyone plans to be away for the Christmas season. And to anyone else who has passed away before Christmas, may you rest in peace and may God keep your loved ones strong. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

I wish you all a safe and very Merry Christmas!

– Kathy
xxx

A day in the life of my UK family

I’m at a very big advantage having family to stay with in the UK. I’m lucky that I had a British father who still has relatives living in England. It makes accommodation a lot easier and stress free, and it’s a good excuse to travel and spend time with my family here.

I was going to add in their last name into my blog title, but I decided against it for privacy reasons.

I’m staying with my cousin, his wife and their two young children who I absolutely adore. They’re both girls and they love my company just like I love theirs. It’s great to be around people you can trust and just have a good laugh with and spend time with them in general. That’s why I feel so at home here because I have family to be around so I don’t feel so alone. It has definitely helped with being home sick during the first couple of days since my arrival. Having young children around also keeps my energy up and I find I become so exhausted after playing with them. So it’s been good to keep busy and just hang out with them. My cousin and I also talk a lot about life and the world and his wife and are like sisters, going out for breakfast, coffee and shopping of course! So it’s almost like I haven’t left home!

The time with my family I treasure the most is eating at the table together. I have not done that with my immediate family in Australia since my dad died and because mum started working full time after his passing where she works in the evening and so my sister and I are left to fend for ourselves so we basically eat at any time we want and wherever we want. My dad was the main reason we all got together as a family because we all had more spare time. I’ve forgotten what it’s like to eat as a family because it’s been a while but it’s nice to get a feel of that again. It makes me realise how much I miss it when my dad was around. It’s just a great way to be together and talk and laugh with each other. It’s my favourite time of the day with them and I always get so excited about it each time I am leaving from work of an evening.

I believe it’s so important to spend time with your family as much as you can because they are so special and are a major part of your life. I have been a little sad my family and I back home don’t get as much time together as we’d like. So we make the most of the time we’re at home together. It is good to have our own space though, now that my sister and I are older, but family time is always special.

They always make you feel better when you have a bad day at work or if anything else gets you down.

I’m so happy I’m staying with my family here in the UK. We are all very close and I am grateful I get to spend the next year with them. We have a lot of plans ahead and I look forward to spending more time together and creating even stronger bonds than what we have now.

The sunshine state

I’ve been in Queensland over the weekend and will be leaving tomorrow unfortunately. It’s been a wonderful 4 days before I hit the cold winter of the UK on Sunday.

On Friday I went to Australia Zoo and saw the cutest animals! Koalas, joeys, red panda’s, tigers and heaps more. Saturday I went to the Beenleigh Events Centre to watch a stage play called ‘Seven brides for seven brothers’ which was great and on Sunday I went to Sutton’s Beach in Redcliffe where there was a beautiful breeze and the water was not too cold and not too warm. Today I went to Dreamworld and went on most of the thrill rides including the new ‘Buzz Saw’.

Tonight will be ended with a family barbecue and some family photos which will be nice and then back to Melbourne tomorrow. It’s been a great four days and I’m bummed I’ll be missing out on the summer but it’s been good to get some sunshine.

Here is a photo from Suttons Beach. Brisbane you’re amazing!

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Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

I never thought I would be able to talk about a break up I went through without getting emotional but here I am, about to do so.

I was with a guy for three years and we broke up about a year and a half ago. I was very back and forth with him afterwards – talking, then not talking and so forth. I was taking so many steps backwards in to moving on but for anyone who has been in a long term relationship and have broken up, you would understand how hard it is to avoid that one person who you’ve shared so much with and who’s been in your life for a long time.

Those closest to me know how much I was affected by the break up and how much I let it ruin my life! And none of it was worth it.

Referring to my ‘I am number one’ blog, I mentioned how I would always try and please my ex boyfriend so he was happy and as a result, neglecting my needs, my health and my happiness. I did that for months and months, even though I knew it was for nothing and knew it was a waste of my time and effort and that it was a cost to my happiness.

It’s so strange how one person can affect your life so much and make you do extreme things and go to desperate measures. You become a different person, what I’d like to call, the worst version of yourself. I was never happy with my ex boyfriend in my life and even when I thought I was, it didn’t last very long. I knew that he was making me unhappy but I never kept away from him, as much as I knew I should have.

After a year and a half of almost hell, I can safely say that I have accepted that my relationship with my ex boyfriend is over and it’s time for me to move on, which I have already been doing this past month while being away.

All the times I was miserable and let my ex boyfriend consume my life, I never thought I could get through it and I never thought that I could get over him.
But this past month away has done wonders for my emotional and physical health. I laugh everyday, I’m always smiling, I’m a better friend, sister and daughter and I appreciate life so much more. I also run everyday, eat less and eat better and I’m feeling great!

Don’t get me wrong, break ups are hard and I went through a lot but I am so happy that I’m in the healing process and taking care of myself, doing things to make me happy and not worrying about what anyone else wants because I know that I’m important and deserve to feel and be happy.

I don’t feel guilty, regretful or sad about the break up or how things have turned out from then on because I know everything happens for a reason and not every relationship is meant to be. There is a lot worse out there and I’m
lucky I didn’t go through a relationship that lasted longer through to an engagement or marriage!

Despite the pain it did put me through, pain is more than likely to occur and exist which we have to accept but to suffer is a CHOICE. And I choose not to suffer over an experience that I am already starting to heal from and one in which I am becoming a much better and stronger person.

I can’t even remember the last time I felt this happy but I am very glad that I have reached this point. We always get there in the end. All it takes is time,
patience, acceptance and realisation that life does get better and that there is a bigger world beyond that one guy we thought we would be with for a life time. As one door closes, another one opens and I am so excited to experience this beautiful world and what challenges it brings me! Onward and upward!

Loved and dearest

What inspired me to write this blog is my family. They are such important people in my life and they play a major part in making me the person I am today. They are my most loved and dearest people in the whole world.

Last night I was on Skype with my niece and auntie and it was so good to hear their voices after a month. We talked for hours, laughed, exchanged life stories but what was the most touching to me was that my family is so supportive of me and my travel plans and they have really noticed the changes it has done to my life. They can see I’m really happy, positive and just loving life! And it makes me feel so good about myself and very confident. I have such a high self esteem and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

The first thing my auntie noticed was my weight, she could tell I had lost a lot in a good way according to her so I guess all this running and non excessive eating regime is really paying off! It means so much to me that my family can see the changes and it just makes me more motivated to keep it all up!

When family make you feel so great, you know that’s all you need. I know I’m very much loved by them which is why I maintain being positive and happy so they can be surrounded by that.

I love my family and I wouldn’t trade them for anyone.

Family, friends and the social life

I’ve been a little slack on keeping up with my daily posts and since I did not blog for yesterday, this blog will be in reference to then and I will also be blogging for today so you will have two reads to keep you all busy!

Yesterday was pretty busy apart from the slowish morning I had. I finally went to bed at a decent hour the Monday night before, which for me was around 10 and that never happens so I told myself I would get up early on the Tuesday to go on a run.  When Tuesday morning came around, I managed to get up after a decent night’s sleep but as soon as I saw the gloominess and rain drops outside, my very eager emotions soon turned to lack of motivation and no interest. I was pretty disappointed in myself because I had been exercising for 4 days straight and I told myself I would only have 1 or two rest days, which I already did on Sunday and Monday. It’s okay though because I had a pretty healthy breakfast which included a piece of fruit, and I don’t eat as much here as I do at home and I know I’ll be running again anyway so my drive is not lost!

And so I wasn’t going to be inside the house all day! I went downtown with my auntie and uncle who needed to run some errands and later that afternoon we picked up my cousin Lisa from work. But the day didn’t end there. My uncle was driving from market to market so my auntie could buy the necessary ingredients for her cooking business. It was evening by the time we got home and I was feeling sleepy from the early wake up so I had a little nap. About 15 minutes later, I was awoken by my cousin who asked if I wanted to go out with their neighbour Grace who I met on Sunday night when they took me out bowling. I was pretty keen since I wanted to catch up and do something with someone around my age. Grace took me out to Elephant Bar in Serramonte where we had some nibbles and a couple of drinks. This place was pretty busy for a Tuesday night, it was awesome! It was really nice for me since I felt like I was back at home catching up with my friends.  As much as I’m having fun with and love my family, it was good to experience social life with someone who I could speak to on the same level as me. All in all I had a really good night and it was good to feel at home. Hello to more adventures!

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